God in our decisions

Recently I’ve been thinking a lot about the future. One part of my mind knows that I should not worry- as Jesus said ‘And He said unto his disciples, Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat; neither for the body, what ye shall put on’ (Like 12:22)- there is still a large part that stays up at night thinking of coulds and woulds. I know this is evidence that I have not yet fully given all my trust to God, but yesterday I realized it was something else also.
I consider myself to be an intellectual person, and while I realize that is not necessarily a good thing, I also know that it’s a pet of myself I’m not quite willing to let go of yet (but I’m working on it!). Now I have come to a point in my life where I am looking to go into Tertiary education, this intellectual part of me seems to be much more prevalent than usual. I admit that I have spent time researching many schools and their rankings- with aspect to the academic side of things- without making God the main focus of my speculation. This morning as I read my Bible in the car, it suddenly occurred to me that one of the most important decisions I would ever make, I was making with a misshapen priority list. I have been so focused on how ‘good’ the school I would be going to is that I have put the more important things- being in the place God wants me to be and in a conducive spiritual environment- on the bottom of my list. I admit that throughout the day it was a difficult pill to swallow- the idea that things would most likely mot go according to my plan- but I also felt a level of release in that I was finally allowing God to do with my life whatever He willed. It is such an important thing for us to integrate God in every decision we make especially in this times we are in. We cannot afford to make careless decisions- no matter how little they may seem.
‘The night is far spent, the day is at hand: let us therefore cast off the works of darkness, and let us put on the armour of light’
-Romans 13:12

To Touch Him.

Mark 5: 25-34

She’d been crying for 12 years
She’d been looking for 12 years-
Searching…
She did not know what for.
But then she saw Him;
All light,
No darkness.
Righteousness.
Love.
She fixed eyes on Him:
She’d been reaching her whole life.
Reaching…
For Him
For Her salvation.

And as she touched Him,
His name was magnified.
Jesus
Jehoshua…
(Jehovah is salvation)

Mark 6:56- ‘…and as many as touched Him were made whole’.

To Touch Him.

Mark 5: 25-34

She’d been crying for 12 years
She’d been looking for 12 years-
Searching…
She did not know what for.
But then she saw Him;
All light,
No darkness.
Righteousness.
Love.
She fixed eyes on Him:
She’d been reaching her whole life.
Reaching…
For Him
For Her salvation.

And as she touched Him,
His name was magnified.
Jesus
Jehoshua…
(Jehovah is salvation)

Mark 6:56- ‘…and as many as touched Him were made whole’.

Seeking the secret place

One of the greatest spirits that a Christian will have to battle Is that of complacency. Earlier this year I had a vision in which I saw a horde of people all struggling to enter into a cave- an opening in a sort of rock, or mountain- and there was an awareness that the opening would soon be closed. I knew immediately it spoke of that ‘secret place’ which the Lord had been speaking about not just to me, but also to His church in general. Despite the revelation I received, I must say that the period between when I saw that vision and now has been quite trying. I returned back home during this time and I have found that the enemy has sent an onslaught of spirits to attack me in my mind, emotions, will and desires. As Christians we ought to be very cautious whenever we return to our physical ‘homes’. The enemy knows the things in us that will quicken to the things in the environment and he seeks to overload our souls in every way possible. The only way to overcome is to rise above that physical place where the devil is able to reach us. And now we have reached a time where we can no longer move in and out of that place freely. There is a flood that has been released in the spirit and the only place where that flood will not be able to reach us is in that secret place. Now is the time for us to run into that place. There is going to be a great falling away as it says in the scripture (1 Thessalonians 2:3) and we have to make a choice of where we want to be found. We have no more time to be indecisive or to make mistakes because there is a spirit in the world waiting to devour us at this time. We can no longer make decisions out of ourselves or do things lightly. Unless the Lord tells us to go, we can no longer go. It is now time for us to arise and fully reclaim the land of our souls.

‘Therefore let us not sleep as do others; but let us watch and be sober.’ -1 Thessalonians 5:6

‘If my people which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sins, and will heal their land.’
-2 Chronicles 7:14

‘Woe to them that are at ease in Zion, and trust in the mountain of Samaria, which are named chief of the nations, to whom the house of Israel came!’ -Amos 6:1

To the finish.

It has to stop.
This running
and limping
and crying
and aching.
It has to stop.
Can’t,
So tired…
It has to stop.
No fighting.
Just wanna go home…
Lullabies.
Blue skies.
Fireflies.
Dreams!
It has to stop.
Yield to it.
Give up.
Give up…
But no!
I dream.
I still…
I dream.
Words on a page.
Forever,
And ever,
Your word is settled in
Heaven.
Word.
Forever.
I will
never leave you
nor forsake
You.
Here.
You.
Don’t yield.
Gasping.
Bruised.
Word.
Through
the waters
I will lead
You.
Now.
You.
Keep running.
Keep Limping.
Keep crying.
Keep aching.
Can’t stop.
Live.
Can’t stop.
Won’t stop.
Live…
Live.

‘Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the Lord thy God, He it is that doth go with thee; He will not fail thee, nor forsake thee’

-Deuteronomy 31:6

‘Forever and ever, thy word is settled in Heaven’

-Psalm 119:89

‘When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee: when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon thee’

-Isaiah 43:2

‘But we are not of them that draw back unto perdition; but of them that believe to the saving of the soul’

-Hebrews 10:39

The Promise of tomorrow

As a young person, I find that I am continually thinking about the future; about my place in the world. From where I stand, there are so many possibilities out there and I am glad of it, yet afraid also. I know that God has a plan for me, but I am sometimes afraid that what He wants for me is different from what I want for me. In theory, I know that His way is best and that the plans he has for me are ‘good and not evil, to bring me to an expected end’, but in my practical, day-to-day work, there is still that fear at the corner of my vision.
In the tabernacle, the most important sacrifice is that of the Golden altar through which we are able to break through the veil of our flesh. At this point, we are required to offer up our souls; i.e our mind, emotions, will and desires- everything that we are. For me, this is the scariest concept of all; one that is to become a reality in hope of Sonship. My greatest struggle is that I am young and just beginning to discover who I am, and so I am greatly alarmed by the thought of having to give myself up. Logically, I know that it will be easier for me to give up myself at this point as I have not yet had time to cultivate character rooted in and controlled by spirits from my country, kindred, etc- God told Abraham to come out of his ‘country, kindred, and father’s house’ in Genesis 12:1. However, this does not stop the anxiety I feel knowing that at some point I will have to make the decision to give up my soul- Of course, God is not one to force and as I have mentioned in a previous post, the ‘power (to choose) to become the sons of God’ spoken of in John 1 lies with the individual. I know in my heart that God is merciful and kind and His ‘ways are higher’ than mine, and it is this that gives me comfort, in knowing that the God that gave me the love and talent of reading and of writing will not allow it to go to waste; but enable me to use it to His glory. I still struggle with all these problems, with knowing who I am everyday, wherever I am. There is a song, and a thing I say to myself in comfort- ‘Jesus at the center’. No matter my fears or uncertainties, I need to make sure that I allow God to be at the center of my heart. I just want to encourage those who are struggling with the same problems. ‘Forever and ever His word is settled in heaven’- Psalm 119:89- and that word is that He ‘will never fail thee nor forsake thee’- Deuteronomy 31:6.

This is what I believe

I believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of God.
I believe that He came and died for my sins.
I believe that He is salvation and strength.
I believe that He is the Most High God; I am.
I believe that He is the only source of light in this darkness.
I believe that He was and is and forever shall be.
I believe that Jesus Christ is Lord over all.
I believe that He is truth.
I believe that He is life.
I believe that He is love.

Weighed down by burdens.

We have come to the time where there is no more room for excess.
‘Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it’- Matthew 7:14. We are called to be light, to be the sons of God, if we so choose. That anchor thaat holds within the veil-unto which we are called- spoken of in Hebrews 6:19 is found in the Most Holy Place.
The outer court is A place of activity, and admission is free. To get to the Holy place, you must be a Priest, a Levite, a son of Aaron. In the Holy place, we still find some leaven, there is still some leeway, we are not totally conformed to that Heavenly image. But in the Most Holy place, there is no such thing. The only person that could enter in was the High Priest. For us, that is Christ. To enter into that Most Holy Place, we must be part of that High Priest; we must be in Christ. There is a difference between Christ in me and me in Christ. The difference is the head. When Christ is in me, I am still the head, I am still the one making the decisions. But when I am in Christ, my whole being is totally swallowed up. Where He goes, I go; What He does, I do. This is what we are being called unto. Matthew 5:48 says that we ought to be perfect even as our Heavenly Father is perfect. If we believe that this is what we are called to, then that leeway is taken from us. A man is held by the things that he believes. If our doctrine is perfection, the road that we are walking on is very narrow indeed. We cannot allow ourselves to be weighed down by burdens. It is no longer a matter of right or wrong, it is matter of what is our expected end. It is time to rise up, to shake ourselves from the dust and begin to afflict our souls. We are Nazarites, and our vow is one that we can no longer take for granted.

The cost of disobedience

Hebrews 3:19- ‘So we see that they could not enter in because of unbelief’.
The Israelites were not able to enter in to the promise land due to their unbelief. Apart from being a lack of trust, the word in the Greek is ‘apistia’ which also means disobedience. In other words, trust in God must be accompanied by obedience to His Spirit and His word.
However, we must be able to hear from the Spirit in order to obey. Recently, I found myself in a difficult conversation, and I was stuck. I could not find the right things to say. Afterwards, I was praying about it and the Lord began to show me what my day had been like prior to that conversation. I realized that the reason I was at a loss for words was because I had not been spending time in God’s presence and had not properly committed myself to Him before leaving that morning. Galatians 5:16 says that if we ‘walk in the Spirit, we shall not fulfill the lusts of the flesh’. We cannot spend our time just playing around- whether it be in things that are seemingly important, or things clearly pertaining to the flesh- and expect to overcome when we are confronted.
Revelation 12:11- ‘And they overcame him by the blood of the lamb, and by the word of their testimony, and they loved not their lives unto the death’. The testimony speaks of the preparation we are making in our closet, the little ways we are afflicting our souls and overcoming. If we cannot overcome the little things, we will not be able to overcome the bigger things. A man does not just get up one day and say ‘I am going to run a marathon!’ He must prepare for a period of time for what is ahead of Him.
The marriage of the lamb is coming, and the bride must make herself ready. We can choose to be foolish virgins and spend our time with perishable things, or we can begin to get that oil into our vessels, into our souls, like the wise virgins.
‘He that hath an ear, let him hear, what the Spirit saith unto the churches. To Him that overcometh will I give to eat of the tree of life which is in the midst of the paradise of God’- Revelation 2:7.
The Israelites were not able to overcome, they had unbelief, and they found themselves outside at the end of the day. They were not able to attain unto that rest which is spoken of in Hebrews 4- ‘There remaineth therefore a rest to the people of God’ (verse 9).